Uhm, its been a while since I last wrote something....
Yeah, a lot of things happened since the last time I wrote. A lot of things. Well, some didn't change. Some I wasn't able to change, and some I preferred not to change.
Well, its already 2015, and a lot of stuff has been going through my head. And its messing with me, and my sickness (PTSD), if you can call it that.
I guess, right now, I'm realizing that I have to go back to the old me, to the old, unchanged Dwight. I have to clean up my act. I have to be reborn. I'm far from where I was back then, I've changed. And I hate the present me.
The present me is not helping anyone, not even myself. I am slowly losing everyone I love, everything that I like. I don't want to go through a road where there's nothing left for me.
I miss writing songs, I miss having something to write about. I miss having that great inspiration I once had. I miss being genuinely happy. I miss the old me, the old Dwight.
So, starting tonight, I'm going to clean up myself. Win back everyone who I've lost along the way. I'm going to retrace all my steps back to where I'm supposed to be, the old me.
Cleaning up means that I'm going to have to stop everything that's bad for me, bad influences, bad karma, bad vices, everything that's bad. If I have to clean up my act, it better be everything.
I'm going to go back, physically, mentally, emotionally. Be that sweet boy I used to be. That goal, to be the old Dwight. Its going to take time, but it sure is going to be worth it.
Goodbye present Dwight, I surely WILL NOT miss you.
Project OLD DWIGHT will commence tonight.
P.S.
Maybe along the way, YOU(you know who you are) pop up, then that will be one heck of a return. Be the one I used to be for you. (You still know who you are).
And I will be, again.
I promise.
