random thoughts...

hey anonymous reader (if there is one)

hey. I just needed something to release my thoughts with. I'm sure that no one will read this so no form, no grammar checks, no spelling, no formality, just words. I'm just going to write and write and write.

I don't know why, but I'm so sad today. Maybe because I think about the things I thought last night. Like the thoughts of not seeing someone for the remainder of the holidays. That just bums me out, really bums me out. I understand that she's busy and all, and I'm willing to accept it, but you can't remove the feeling of missing someone so badly that you want to enjoy the remaining time before the gap arrives.

I feel so heavy today, so sad. And it shows. A clear indication is that I'm doing this blog. And I only do blogs if I'm extremely happy or sad. And right now, I'm sad.

The last Friday night of the year for us, everything that happened that night, was unexpected. Not the positive unexpected. A lot of problems occurred, my day was pretty much downhill since 1pm, so negative vibes was filling me. Yep, I got it out of my system, but somehow, that night always found a way to piss me off. That's why I waited the clock to turn 12:00 a.m. Just to end the day. Or maybe it was just me, hoping, that something extraordinary or amazing would happen, but alas, nothing of that sort transpired. It was fun, meeting new people and all. But like I said, the things that happened that night was unexpected.

The days that we would be apart for a long time has not happened yet, i already miss you. I know that I have to be strong because I love you, and I will do everything, whatever it takes to have you back in my arms. When we meet again, I will hug you so tight and never let you go, believe it.